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The Power of Good-Bye
A couple hours ago I dropped my boyfriend off at the airport. I may not see him for another six weeks. He's spending the next two-and-a-half months on a job in New York City and I'm not sure if I will be visiting. I'm happy for him -- it's a great opportunity both personally and professionally, as he's never even been to the city -- and I knew this was coming for months. I even had a test run with a two week seperation while he visited family. I was prepared for this. But after spending a really great week together, it was harder to say good-bye that I would've thought.
My heart sunk the instant our hug ended. I turned and I started back to the car. It sunk faster, deeper. By the time I got back to my apartment, I was downright sad. We are in a good place with our relationship and the reality of this separation has finally sunk in. My lazy, hazy days of summer will be spent without him this year. I'm without my best friend for six whole weeks. I know New York will be great for him, and summer here in Vermont will be good for me, too. But still...
For all my bitching and complaining about the kid, I'll be damned -- I miss him already.
My bf and I are finally moving in together. Otherwise we're about an flight away from eachother and only see eachother once or twice if we're really lucky a month. We're doing a six week seperation right now and it's hell! I know how you feel. I always thought I was so independent and thought it was safer to stay detached. I thought that until I dropped him off at the airport and was a mess! I miss him so much it's exhausting. But the payoff is fantastic! When we're together it's amazing and we're amazing. Distance really does do something great to a relationship. It makes me take less things for granted I think. So miss him now, and you'll realize just how happy you are when he's back.
Posted by MaY on 06/18/05 at 11:08 PM19
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It's difficult to see someone off who you so deeply care about. That bout of separation anxiety that you speak of hits me every time. The next couple days will kinda suck, but a good trick is to refocus your thoughts onto what you both have to look forward to next... and the next time you'll be together. Planning a visit to NYC might be a great idea... set a date that works for both of you and then make it happen. Something concrete like that to look forward to always eases the sadness that you're feeling now.
Posted by Anonymous on 06/19/05 at 12:55 AM19
I understand completely. When Scott was doing the AIDS Lifecycle ride, I was sad and lonely. But 7 days doesn't compare to 6 weeks.
Posted by Roque on 06/19/05 at 3:17 PMPowered by Movable Type 4. Hosted by LivingDot.
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