twenty-something

I feel so silly. Over the past week, I've talked, exactly twice, to this guy online (yeah, no wonder Dunc and I are having "problems"). Let's call this guy Banker. Now, Banker's brand new to town (this week!) -- cute (juding from one pic), smart (college educated!), young (26!), and seemingly together. We chatted randomly earlier in the week, then again last night. He seemed like the kind of guy I could flirt with online, and maybe become friends with in the real world. And since I'm lacking in the Friends-in-Burlington Department, and was feeling kind of lonely last night, I decided to take a chance.

We decided to meet up, in real life, for dinner tonight. I gave him my number, and we made a plan for the next day.

I told Duncan last night when he came over for sleepies. He was cool with my "date." Today, Big D and I went out to lunch, and I then spent the afternoon making a killer Holiday iMix for my student employees. I was really, as much as I hate to admit it, sitting around by the phone, waiting for Banker to ring me up, to make dinner plans, and make a new friend.

Five o'clock came and went. Then six o'clock. I started to get hungry. Seven came and went. Eight. And now, here we are, at nine o'clock.

I've been stood up.

Yeah, I feel silly. And maybe a little shitty. And I keep thinking -- what the fuck? Why didn't he call me?

Did he get into some car wreck out in the snow? Did the phone get shut off at his new place? Did he Google me and find that unflattering picture of me on the staff page of my department's website? Did somebody "get to him first" and bad mouth me? Or was this cool, cute, smart, seemingly real and genuine guy really just -- a fake?

Aw, fuck this. I do have a "boyfriend," afterall. How can I bitch? ... I don't know what I'll do if/when I'm ever back on the market and dating. I can't even handle making new friends. Rejection sucks!

I feel sorry for myself, and maybe you should do the same. Pity party for me.

Maybe I'll brave the snow and go out, alone, for the first time in ages. I kind of feel like an adventure.