twenty-something

I've just faced down my biggest challenge in my job yet, and I can say with some certainty that I have survived, and I have passed the test. I wish I could celebrate, but it's not really a victory. It's just... over.

I can't, of course, talk any specifics, but I will say that someone that I was once close to, someone whom I care about, has well and truly disappointed and betrayed me with a brutality, and with a regularity, that is usually only reserved for boyfriends. Not employees. He/she has been "going through some stuff" which seems to be the scapegoat for all this, but in hindsight, these problems have been present going back to practically Day One. It's been an "abusive relationship" for too long, and should've ended long ago.

I can't really complain, because I'm not the one "going through some stuff." But he/she seems to have no perspective on how his/her actions affect others. Depression aside, he/she has been poisioning my work for months. And the last two weeks, dealing with the fallout from all of this -- For me, it has been horrible and draining and harrowing. I feel angry, guilty, sad, relieved, hopefully... happy that it seems to be over for me.

I'm sick of this melodrama. The semester is almost done, and, god, do I need a break.